This weekend I got to attend a Women’s Brunch at our church! It was amazing! It was great to be able to sit with other ladies and just have time in fellowship. I was also super excited when I read that the message was going to be on Proverbs 3:5-6 NKJV
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.”
This is my life verse and the first verse that I ever memorized. God knew how much I would wrestle with my need to understand and where my faith and trust in Him would have to be greater.
It never ceases to amaze me how intimately and deeply we are all known by our Creator. And now having a little one of my own that is constantly keeping me on my toes and where I feel like I am failing daily, it is comforting to know that God knows her far better than I ever will. God also uses Allie to remind me of how deep and wide His love is for me.
I am currently reading a book called, Gentle and Lowly by Dane Ortlund, and it is all about the amazing character, heart, and love that God/Jesus has for each and everyone of us. A love I am being reminded of daily through our strong willed, joyful, and currently hyper independent daughter.
Every day and usually multiple times a day I am becoming frustrated with Allie as she is trying to exert her independence and wanting to do everything that I do. It takes so much time to explain to her why she can or cannot do certain things. And multiple times a day I remind her that when I am saying no or having to correct a behavior it isn’t because it is fun for Momma, but it is my job to keep her safe. That every correction and “no” feels like it is shattering her little world is really there to do what is best for her and to keep her safe. It may feel like momma is just being mean, but I’m not. I have the ability to see and reason in ways that she can’t.
The other day as I was having this conversation with Allie for the umpteenth time, I felt the Lord asking me if my love for her was in any way lessening because she was having the same struggle again and again. And, no of course it wasn’t. This is my baby girl, there is nothing that she could do or not do that could make me love her less. My love for her isn’t based on what she does. I love her just because. It’s as simple and as deep as that. I loved her before she was in my arms and will love her forever, no question about it.
I could feel the Lord whisper, I love you just the same. His love for me isn’t based on me but on Him. The same is true for all of us. Christ’s love for us isn’t based on us but on His character and His heart. There is nothing we could do to make Him love us less. Though that is hard to believe to be true at times, especially when life happening around you doesn’t make sense and you can’t seem to understand why what is happening is happening. Know and rest assured in the truth of Proverbs 3:5-6, to lean not on your own understanding but to trust the Lord with all your heart and He will direct your paths. His love for you is deep and His will is to bring about all things for His glory and your good. No matter what the season.
Our love for our babies is but a glimpse of the love that Christ has for you and me, as mind blowing and hard as that may be to believe.
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